I feel jealous of the people who’s ex came back (sorry)

Almost 2 months post discard, blocked on everything, basically he forgot about me and our 3 year relationship, I’ve coming and commenting on this sub sometimes to let my feelings out, to ask for advice or to comment on post when I don’t feel as sentimental as I feel today. i ignored the red flags and wanted to see this person through rose colored glasses, he broke up with me and he was angry and pissed I sense he is angry at me even tho I tried to be a good girlfriend, he left me with so much questions and basically with everything in my hands. I have the “luck” that all my exes have returned and ask for my forgiveness but with this guy, since he was all mysterious and avoidant idk if he will unblock me nor comeback to apologize, sorry guys, I know it’s not your fault that your ex came back and mine probably never will, I’m just trying to process the emotions that come within grieving. Sending big hugs to y’all