It is unfair and I feel anger

Its unfair that you are not the one waking up in the middle of the night with pain and emptiness in your chest. Its unfair that you don’t wake up in the morning confused about the reality. Was it all a nightmare? Are you still with me? Are we happy again? Its unfair that you don’t feel this burning anger in your head spiraling driving you insane.

Now I understand why I was so anxious these past 2 months, why I had doubts, why I was so extremely insecure, cause I would FEEL and SENSE you were already leaving in your head, you disconnected yourself from me right away when we started to communicate to make future plans. Why did you made those promises? Why dis you say you want it too? How could you saw me crying and don’t feel empathy towards the person that you said you wanted to marry? The person you told things you didnt tell anyone ever?

I was in love with a robot? Wasted 4 years of my life on and off with you? Gave you my EVERYTHING I swear to god. why the fuck? IT WASNT WORTH IT, YOU WERENT WORTH IT AND I COULD NOT SAW IT I COULD NOT STOP MYSELF. It’s unfair that you can supress all and move on get entertained with someone else while Im looking for answers and feeling totally lost and empty. I know relationships end, I know people change, I know love vanishes.

But this is totally different.