After bet with my roommate, I’m considering coming back to the files

Hey everyone, so I’ve been thinking and I’m considering coming back to the files but not fully sure if I should.

I’m actually very surprised to even be making this post. I thought I’d just stop and be done after my last post (though I kept an open mind to returning). I thought if I did return, it might be after a month or two. But now I’m considering coming back sooner than that. The files were fun while I listened, but i didn’t really think I’d feel a desire to come back. I do, though. I’ve had a lot of free time recently with my schedule clearing up finally and it’s given me a lot of empty space throughout the day. During those times I want to go back to the files and just listen a little to relax but haven’t.

If you really think about it, I almost listened to the files for a month and a half straight. Each of the 14 days were just the days where I spent 2+ hours officially listening to the files in a coherent order. But each and every day during that month and a half I listened to at least one of the files so I got really used to them and their relaxing effect in my life, and I got to appreciate them a lot, and also appreciate this community. Of course most days were too busy to do a dedicated “day” but as I said in my updates I did always listen no matter what. So it’s been difficult and a VERY surprisingly saddening to let them go.

But things haven’t been as good without the files. It’s like I was shown something I was never supposed to see, but it’s too good to stay away from now.

Like I’d never even seen much porn before and never appreciated it, but with the files and this community I’ve been shown so much and it’s really really opened my eyes. The same goes for the files, obviously. It’s just so many good feelings that the files being on.

The best way I can describe it is like, imagine if you’ve lived your whole life in a world of black and white, but then one day you had a whole new world and reality shown to you that you literally never knew existed before, and it was a world of color and brightness and beauty. This world is a complete game changer and shows you a new side of things you never knew was there before. You get some time to really get to know and appreciate this world, and right at the peak of that it’s closed off from you and you’re sent back to your boring black and white world. I’ve been pretty stressed again without the files and I’m slightly confused what to do with my free time now that I have some. Of course I’m not busy and my schedule clears up the second I stop listening to the files lol.

Also, I dedicated a lot of time to the files and even money when I bought a uniform. It feels like it might be a bit of a waste to throw that all away. Some people who’ve reached out privately echo this sentiment and bring up some good points to not waste it.

I’ve had a TON of people messaging me and saying I should really come back and that it might be good for me, and I wasn’t sure at first but I’m starting to think they have a point. I’ve also had a few people telling me to stay away. So im a bit split on this haha. Really missing the files right now though. Again, unexpectedly for sure. I thought this would just be something I did for a while and then stopped, but now I do feel the desire to come back.

To be 100% honest, I think maybe part of me was pretending to be more confident about leaving than I actually was. But I’m not sure.

Any advice from you guys on this? Or even just general comments.

I’m curious to hear. You’ve been so helpful so far, so I’m just hoping you guys have some good advice!