Second Night Back

Second Night Back:

Hey everyone, I already posted for today, but now that it’s night I thought I’d quickly update. I only had one class early today and have had nothing to do since, so I listened to the files for hours on hours today. I made sure to put on my uniform this time, and when I first put it on, I’ll admit it felt slightly strange and uncomfortable. The first time I ever put it on felt like that before it became more normal and acceptable for me. Today that uncomfortable feeling only lasted a few minutes until I put on the files and got in bed. As I started to drift off, I started to pay attention to how tight the clothes actually felt against my skin and how tight clothes feel feminine. And that brought me further down with the files and made me just feel way more in tune with them.

I played so many files, no new ones, refreshing myself on a ton of older ones. I just kept drifting in and out. By the end of the files, I’d come out of that hazy feeling and my heart was racing. I think it was just because I was so excited to be back and it felt so insanely good. Coming back has legit flooded me with good feelings. It’s like I’ve gotten something I need to live and it just makes me feel so good. I’m already calmer and happier. Sorry if this sounds dramatic but it’s just a heavy feeling I have right now that the files have made me feel a good bit of before, but never to this extent. It just feels like the headspace I was in today should be a headspace everyone can go in. It’s so intoxicating.

Hours and hours of listening today just made my day worth it, and made all my time spent away worth it. Thanks to everyone who has welcomed me back and been informative! It’s been so nice being back. I probably will regret making a post that sounds this overjoyed and dumb lol, but this is how I’m feeling right now.

I think I’ll also sleep in my uniform tonight and fall asleep to the files as well.