Day 38 After the Bet

Hey everyone, happy to be doing another update! It’s been a week I believe since my last one lol.

Well this past week, I’ve been doing a lot like hanging out with friends and family, but when I have free time I’ve made sure to listen to the files a ton. I still do a full on session with multiple files every morning and I try to do it every night as well. It honestly just makes my day so much better when I can listen to the files a ton. Some days it basically takes up my full day, like today. It’s been almost nonstop listening today.

One thing I’ll say is that it is progressively starting to feel like the files are becoming my life in a way. If that makes sense. Like I think about them a ton, even when not listening, and the files feel like they’re starting to become an aspect of my actual identity. I would’ve been scared by that thought at the start of my bet but now it honestly does turn me on to know. The files have been consistently shaping me into a new person and it’s really hot to know that it’s done this and is continuing to do this.

I’m thinking of finally adding some new files to my list, some of the original ones. There’s still a few I haven’t added so it’ll be cool to add some new ones!

Also still just using the hair tie since I don’t wanna wear my uniform with my family haha.

A few days ago, I think three, I didn’t have time to listen to the files and I did notice the day was a bit more stressful than most. Not sure if it was cus the day was busy itself or if I didn’t have the files. But the next morning I listened and instantly felt just great. The files feel like a nice warm weighted blanket in winter, they just feel like home and they feel so warm and safe in a sense. Hope that makes sense.

But yeah, continuing to listen to the newest five almost every day. I also do try to keep the loops going on at night while I sleep. One question I have it whether or not the loops actually change anything? I know I’m changing overall but not sure if the loop files while sleeping is adding to it. They might be though.

And I watched overload for the first time in a while earlier today. It felt really fresh and honestly just sent me so deep. Today was a really deep session in general. I started with overload and it was suchhh a good way to start. It just made me feel amazing right away, and after that it was hours and hours of the actual files. I just closed my eyes and listened.

I’m also considering adding the IQ files I’ve avoided. Does anyone have opinions on them? I feel like they wouldn’t actually lower IQ but they might be fun to listen to!

Also, just curious, do people generally like the newest five files? What are your opinions on them? Cus I’m so in love with them. And file nine on the original set too. Those are my favorites. They are just so powerful.

Also, one thing I’ve noticed now is that while watching porn I actually have started to look forward to seeing the cock in the vids. And what’s really weird about that is that I’m pretty sure I’m still neutral on cocks. But I look forward to seeing them in vids probably because the files just condition me to want to see them a bit. If I’m being honest I’m embarrassed to admit that but I do wanna be as honest as I can on here to document it. I don’t think I’m actually into cock but it is a weird feeling I’ve never had before. And I realized that around 3 or so days ago I’d say. Anyone else had an experience like this before?