stopping meds except for ssri

i’m doubting my diagnosis. i think i am manipulating myself into having bipolar symptoms. i think i am manipulating everyone. what is wrong with me. i’m off my meds and am thinking of only taking my ssri. this will tell me the truth. if i become manic or hypomanic then i’ll know im indeed bipolar and not an imposter. how long does it take for an ssri to take effect? is this a really bad idea? i am willing to make sacrifices, i NEED to know the truth. has anyone else done this?

please reddit do not lock this post i need advice. thank you.