idk this isn’t actually a crush but I need help😟

so I don’t wanna sound weird and like a saesang but I love bang chan from skz (a kpop boy group) so much like it’s SO ineffable. like sometimes I think to myself how weird I am for like wishing that I was someone in a position where I could actually get to know him, yk? it’s actually freaking me out and I need someone to tell me a way to stop 😕