nbome ruined me pls help

ive taken nbome every weekend for near 3-4 months. i lived in such a cloudy reality at the time that i was completely ignorant to the dangerous side effects its caused. i used to be around 75kg at 6ft the average and healthy weight. after the abuse ive dropped 11kgs to 64kgs. this has caused some extreme body dysmorphia to the point i cant even stand to look at myself without a shirt i also suffer with really bad delusion. i just feel everyone has something against me secretly on the inside and this caused me to lose all my friends. i used to get an extreme body load on it and i was pretty certain i was on nbome but didnt care as it let me dissociate and escape bad circumstances. from this jaw body load i even managed to be gurning so so hard all of my teeth have slanted completely inwards and im sure ill lose them at some point id literally go into hardcore psychosis everytime i used it but just didnt care i believe i couldve possibly had strokes on it but im unsure. i noticed one side of my dace going droopy and my voice changing multiple times on it . this wasnt a hallucination i can no longer smoke weed as it throws me back into a trip and i become just as unsociable and narcissistic as when i was on it dont fuck with nbome i dont know what im gonna do im 17 yrs old but was about 16 when this happened. can anyone tell me of anymore side effects that could come or that i should be wary of how can i recover. especially gaining weight