i realize i cant let other people serve me food

im visiting my dad before the holiday and he decided to do a little thanksgiving thing while im here. it was relatively small, me, him, my step mom, step brother, step brothers friend, and step mom's friend. my stepmoms love language is 100000% food, on previous visit (before gastroparesis) she would constantly be feeding me, she's also from Moldova and would be constantly be feeding me food from there. so our little thanksgiving was a mix of Moldovan/Russian food and some standard American fare. with my stepmom she likes to plate stuff and i have now realized i feel SO bad if i say no to food or don't eat something she plates, especially if it's food from her home country. the turkey was fine, bread was fine, but the thing that isn't sitting well is the Olivier salad they made. it was potatoes (cooked), carrots (cooked), chicken breast and pickles. i think the thing i am having the biggest issue with is the pickles. it was yummy but i am having major regrets eating what she served me. my stomach is making some gnarly noises, brups aren't good, and i don't think my reglan is gonna win this battle (took it before dinner) and im not sure if the zofran is helping. we are about 8 hours ago and i am NOT feeling good.

i am dreading this holiday season because i feel so bad knowing people worked hard on meals and just want me to enjoy them, and i know i can't. this is my first holiday season with gastroparesis so i guess i quickly need to learn to not feel bad about eating a bit of everything that was made.