I'm bisexual! (my... 2nd coming out?)

at age 14 i was a very confused person. i had 0 clue what was going on with my sexuality that i just gave myself the label bi, and at around 15 i changed that to gay. where i stand with what im attracted to (right now, at 17), i like men and not really women. Yet, gay never felt right, my OCD would make the only thing i cared about in life being not seeming straight. "being straight" was no longer a sexuality, it was a conflict. likewise, being gay was no longer a label, but "the goal." This inner conflict has continued for far too long and has wrecked my mental health more than any other OCD I've had ever could. i really don't know how to unpack this issue, honestly. Because of this and the label on myself feeling right, I'm just going by bi. i dont have to fear anything anymore, and i don't have to ruminate for weeks on end. i can just vibe, hopefully find love and finally be carefree and happy like i was. it is a weird circumstance, but i like bi!