i hate this sm/really insecure

what do i even do? it feels like it’s getting worse and worse everyday. i’ve been so disappointed in my body i hate it so much.. i’ve cried about my hairiness especially on my face a lot lately. don’t know what’s causing this bcs my parents never took me to a doctor even though i begged them to take me so i can know what’s going on and why im growing hair on my face. im scared to shave because it might get stubbly or worse because that’s what my mom says. i feel like everybody can see it especially when i look forward. you can see that im growing a beard and it looks very bad..