I hate having so little empathy, and the social repercussions of it.

Every time someone expects me to have empathy or feel bad for a person, a group of people, whatever, ANYTHING, I just don't feel responsible for them. I have empathy sometimes- but it's not generous. Like, hearing people be so sympathetic towards (insert natural disaster or war here) victims, I just don't feel so bad. I know I should, but I just can't. And every time I don't pretend to be all empathetic, people look at me like I'm some ruthless asshole. I'm not. I just can't feel it so much as other people and I wish I could, but I don't think I ever will.