Just found out I’m pregnant.. I already have a 15mo and 27mo. I’m scared.

Before you judge me or tell me this could have been prevented.. sure but it’s also a little more complex. Prior to my 27mo I was infertile for 8 years, I found out I was pregnant with her 3 months before my wedding and we had been using condoms. Then, when my daughter was 5mo I found out I was pregnant again. I got pregnant with my second from ONE time without protection, I thought we’d be ok because I was infertile for so long, I was breastfeeding and I hadn’t had a period since before I got pregnant with my daughter, so i thought the odds of that happening were just close to none. Now… my son is 15mo, I’ve been breastfeeding him, still no period since Jan. 2022.. and I just found out I’m pregnant. Again, from ONE time.. i was just getting ready to stop breastfeeding because I’ve been pregnant or breastfeeding continuously since Jan. 2022 so I was ready to had my body to myself again.. I’m so scared. I’m anxious. Both my pregnancies were high risk and just a lot. I feel guilty and just wondering how I’m gonna do it. Please I need comfort. If you’ve had 3 under 3 I would love to hear your experience.. I’m really struggling right now. No one knows yet.