Please help me

Im devastated, the guy Im in a ldr with seems to be an egg. I just found out he used to criss dress before and have hooked up with men. He’s also been interacting with nsfw ts accounts here. I really thought I had someone who loved me for who I am but it seems I really am just a fetish to him and he may be seeing me as an extension for his transness

Im sorry this sounds all crazy, Im heartbroken and dont know what to do