Therapist dislikes that I like to learn new things and now I feel blocked. What can I do?

Recently my therapist confirmed my hunch that he kind of dislikes it when I talk about my passion for learning new things. He stated that he dismisses my wish of me going back to university to study and to be honest doesn't quite take it seriously, as I've been struggling to keep up with the workload of my job because of a past episode of depression and a high pressure environment. The degree I'd want to pursue is considered rather stressful but not impossible, even for people with a history of depression.

Here comes the issue:

Apart from me feeling hurt by that, I noticed that I started hearing his critical voice whenever I open up a textbook to study. It dimmed my joy and appreciation more than it should have. What hurts even more is that I noticed starting to struggle with my retention and staying focused. Genuinely, I feel like I lost some IQ points.

I don't know how to fix this. Please help