I’m so lonely

I’ve been on 12 first dates in the past 6 months and nothing came out of them except a weird situationship that ended in rejection

Usually I’m fine not having a partner and I can enjoy my day just fine but, for some reason it’s hitting me today. Some nights I feel so much longing for a partner that I write intense poetry about how I could’ve known these people deeper.

I’ve struggled with depression all my life and this feeling is different

I’m also only attracted to people who are more masculine than me

I don’t know what else to do, I’m on every dating app. I go to singles nights at bars and I feel like I’m confident in myself and generally attractive

I feel undesirable