What do guys do when you feel walang nang patutunguhan ang buhay mo and you're running out of time.

So I'm currently an overstaying student sa university 2yrs to be exact + palamunin sa bahay. wondering why di man lang ako nag part-time work? hindi ko rin alam tbh. sure my parents can still afford my school expenses but it's quite embarrassing to be jobless at this age. Ngayon ko lang narerealize na buong buhay ko parang nabuhay lang ako for the sake na mabuhay lang. I live in fear and anxiety and i get intimidated palagi 🥲. I don't even see myself graduating and my course is not even my dream job. I even overthink death when im sicidl na since wala naman nakakabalik from the dead so pano mo malalaman na pain ends kapag namatay ka? I feel so helpless in this world na hinihintay ko na lang ata na may magbreak inside of me to escape all of it.