With 40k+ savings but still pretends to be broke

Problem/Goal: I earn 20k monthly in my first job for 7 months, and surprisingly, I was able to earn 40k+ savings. Di ako nakapag tipid ng maayos during the first few months because of unexpected expenses + debts. Targeting 100k this year tho. Sa sobrang tipid ng mentality ko, halos ayoko na kunin yung pera ko to the point na hindi ko na daw inenjoy sarili ko

I also live independently and do treat myself but I sometimes feel guilty if I spend 1k for some beauty apparel. Haha it's like nung bata pa ako, ang gastadera. Now that I've grown, ewan ni 20 pesos na banana cue ayaw bilhin kase nasa mindset ko na "magtipid tayo, may pagkain pa naman sa bahay."

P.S. Di ako gutom, tinatanggi ko lng cravings ko