Worried about how to live life

For the past 10 months after I got diagnosed I was fixated on what to do with my life. I finally figured it out, but I'm upset because I don't know if I can have a normal life. I am diagnosed with Autism and Bipolar. I sometimes have some sleeping issues and I think about how that could impact my job if I got one. Right now the sleeping issues are not too bad (I wake up at 6 AM and sort of stay up) but they can get bad. Sometimes the sleeping issues are hard, I get psychogenic itches and they keep me up at night, or I just don't feel tired and stay awake. This problem is leading me to having suicidal thoughts. Why live if I'm going to suffer trying to keep a job?