friends

i haven’t seen my best friend in almost 5 months around the same time i was diagnosed & starting meds, we’ve had a few text convos, & she has sent me months worth of memes on tiktok/insta but i havent opened or replied to any, a few weeks ago i saw her at a bus stop but she didnt see me (i have a common car & she had her back to it so i put my seat back lowkey hiding), we didnt have a falling out or anything which is how most of my friendships end & its not the first time i’ve ghosted a friend or hidden from one in public, i just feel like friendships are too much pressure to keep up, i havent seen or talked to anybody besides my bf & family in months, nobody besides them has tried to see or talk to me either so like whats the point