Liking my manic state??

I’ve been recently diagnosed with bipolar 2 and am on a mood stabilizer and in therapy. I’ve been trying different doses and when I was on a lower dose I had an extreme high for weeks now I’m double it and I’m so miserable. I know my body needs to adjust but I loved my high and miss it. In my manic state my relationships thrived, grades were good, and I felt great in general. Now my relationships are difficult. I’m putting a fake face for everyone but it’s getting too much and I just miss my manic state.