I want to find love

Obviously I'm bipolar and I have had bad experiences with relationships in the past. I am stable now (relatively) and have been for the past 2 years. This is the most healthy I have been since I was a kid. Although I have been a little depressed for the last couple months. I just started a new medication and I already feel more energized and a little more confident (no I am not manic).

I have been lonely for a long time. There is this girl in my class who I might have a crush on (she is cute). I told someone I know about her and they said that she is probably into me.

My friend is encouraging me to say something to her, however I am scared to initiate and scared of being rejected. I am afraid of being in relationships because I don't want to have another disaster (then again I was very manic at the time). I am also scared that maybe she isn't really into me and I will just embarrass myself.

I fantasize about being in a relationship again. Falling asleep with another person is probably the thing I miss the most. Hugs. Knowing a person better than anyone else does and sharing everything with them.

Anyways I hope that didn't sound cheesy. Just wanted to share what has been on my mind.