I’m just.. tired man..

I’m so tired man..

I’m so tired of everything.. being alone, FEELING alone.. tired of life fucking me over.. I was in a wreck a couple years back and it’s left me disabled in a permanent/ semipermanent way.. and because of that I’m always in some bit of pain. I’m also painfully single, and have maybe 2 friends. One lives 3 hours away, the other I can’t tell if he likes me or not, even my counselor can’t tell. I want him to want me, but at the same time.. I don’t know.. I’m sick of being alone, but if I end up in another relationship, how long until they push me away like all my other ones (except one, I ended because they were nuts) my last girlfriend broke up with me due to my depression, who’s to say that my next relationship won’t do the same? And even if I did get in a relationship.. what would change? I’m worried nothing will change.. nothing ever does.. and I’m worried shit’s just gonna get worse, especially given my country’s recent election. (Please don’t comment anything political, that’s not why I’m here) I just want to be happy again.. why can’t I just be happy again.. why does life like to kick you while you’re down. Why does nothing work like it should.. I’m so sick of it.. the pain, the loneliness, the world in general.. what’s the point anymore..

I’m so tired man..

I’m so tired of everything.. being alone, FEELING alone.. tired of life fucking me over.. I was in a wreck a couple years back and it’s left me disabled in a permanent/ semipermanent way.. and because of that I’m always in some bit of pain. I’m also painfully single, and have maybe 2 friends. One lives 3 hours away, the other I can’t tell if he likes me or not, even my counselor can’t tell. I want him to want me, but at the same time.. I don’t know.. I’m sick of being alone, but if I end up in another relationship, how long until they push me away like all my other ones (except one, I ended because they were nuts) my last girlfriend broke up with me due to my depression, who’s to say that my next relationship won’t do the same? And even if I did get in a relationship.. what would change? I’m worried nothing will change.. nothing ever does.. and I’m worried shit’s just gonna get worse, especially given my country’s recent election. (Please don’t comment anything political, that’s not why I’m here) I just want to be happy again.. why can’t I just be happy again.. why does life like to kick you while you’re down. Why does nothing work like it should.. I’m so sick of it.. the pain, the loneliness, the world in general.. what’s the point anymore..