I hate myself for being transgender/non-binary

I'm 19 years old and last year I discovered I was trans/non-binary. It fucked up my relationship with the church because I felt like I wasn't going as my true self. It was kinda weird that I thought that way because I'd already distanced myself from the church. It also didn't help that I had gotten guilt tripped into coming for a long time. Anyways me being who I am fucked up my relationship with church and Mormons in general because I was raised to be a man. I have only one person from my old ward that I still talk to and he's supportive of me which helps a lot. Idk how supportive because he keeps trying to talk me into church stuff. Idk it might just be the Mormon in him trying to figure out how to be my friend