I’ve become transphobic after realizing I’m trans

Ever since i realized that im a boy, I’ve started to think really transphobic things.

This is gonna sound terrible, and I apologize in advance.

Nowadays, whenever I see a trans man, my first instinct is to question their validity as a man. If I see a picture of a trans man, I start to point out features that look feminine in my head, despite the fact that I never would’ve thought of them as trans if I had not known.

Immediately after this, I feel disgusted that I’m thinking like this and correct myself. The I literally never thought like this before realizing I’m trans (or maybe I just didn’t see ftm people much?).

I really want to stop thinking this way. It’s not what I believe in at all, but it’s become my first instinct now. Maybe it’s because I’m disgusted with myself + the amount transphobic narratives I see floating around these days. Idek pls help