Prem, Bhalobasa, Ebong...

Byaktigoto kichu golpo bolbo. Mon diye shunben. Phone e 6% charge ache, er moddhei joto ta hoy.

Ektu background dewa dorkar. Amar ager post guli kokhono pore thakle apnara janben - ami bigoto 6 bochor sohorer baire chilam. Fole ashol growing stage.. ashol teenage.. bachelor's-master's - sob e baire boro hoye otha. Bondhu-bandhob sara bharot borso jure choriye, sala Kolkata tei keu nai. Jak ge.

Overachiever kono kaal ei chilam na. But early achiever bolte paren. Kom boyoshei onek kichu kore felechi, jeta sadharonoto lokera 27-28 bochor boyoshe giye kore.

Etar fole ekta somossa dekha diyeche. Ei sohore ami serom bhahbe kono kalei prem bhalobasa korini. Kokhono arob sagorer dhare, kohono desh er ekebare moddhikhane, abar kokhono forasi desh er rastay... Prem boro durdanto jinish.

Hisab moto porashona amar sesh. Chakri kori. Ta se holoi ba ekti baal er chakri. Prokrito prapto boyoshko bolte paren. Ekhane golmaal ta hoyeche ei je... Prem er khoj e, ei sohore amar somo boyoshi meye ra, bishesoto Bangali meyera, tara pray sobai tader byaktigoto jibone jhule royeche.

Ei jemon dhorun, bochor 25 er jonoiko mohila, tar naam dewa jak - Binodini. Binodini bortoman e ekti chakri kore bote, tobe se khusi noy. Se bachelor degree holder. Fole tar saamne option onek. Master degree ebong uporontu. Binodini confused. Binodini bicholito.

Erom e arekjon modila, tar naam dewa jak - Kadombori. Kadomborir boyosh ektu kom. Se bortoman e bachelor's korche. Pray sesh er dike. Etar por se ki korbe... Tar kono dharona nei. Se adou kono chakri pabe kina, seta niye se besh chintito.

Ekta jinish apnara dekhben... Je boyosh goto ekhtiyar er moddhe, jader sathe prem kora jaay ba korle bhalo hoy - tara hoy bortoman student ba nikot bhobissot er student. Ebar apni nije student na hole onno ekjon student er sathe prem korata besh chaap er byapar. Somoy, srom, external force, aspirations... Sob e golmaal srishti kore.

Ebar jara chhatri noy.. ebong kormoroto mohila.. tarao onekei khusi noy kaj niye, jibon niye. Oshanto mon niye apni prem korben kemon kore?

Ami bhoyanok versatile. Silajit theke Slipknot, Robert Eggers theke Rituporno, Baul theke blues, Mohunbagan theke Montpellier. Amar range bishal aar ami besh open ei somosto sanskritik bishoy. Chhou teo achi, Kabuki teo achi. Ei range ta amay onek beshi sonkhok manush der sathe connect korte sahajjo kore. Kintu dukkher bishoy ami onno der moddhe extremism e beshi dekhechi. Aar setai sabhabik jodio.

Ei context ei ami jolonto generation gap dekhte pacchi samnno kichu bochorer parthokko te. Ekti meyer sathe "fr, irl, smh" jatiyo pookie language e kotha bolar por... Onno arekjon er sathe "obhabonio, cazz, bomai" jatiyo bhasay kotha boli. Ei dui tei pardorshi kauke pele ki khusi tai na hotam. Je saari teo comfortable, backless eo. Je Rupam Islam shone abar Red Hot Chill Pepper o. Versatility.

Jak se kotha. Jibone prem dorkar. Sobar e dorkar. Kintu ei sohor ta amar kirom prem-heen lagche. Ami toh borabor e ektu cosmopolitan manush. Olpo boyosh e bhabtam... Obangali kauke barir bou kore anbo. Cultural exchange hobe, take amar culture er sathe bhaab korar process e koto moja tai na hobe. Chele pile der bhin rajje mamarbari hobe.

Boyosh er sath sathe bojha jaay... Biye tiye orom vibes diye hoy na. Seta ekta social byapar. Onek rokom kaida ache tate. Kintu bhalobasha korle ami toh bolbo seta plan korei kora uchit. Ote concious effort laage; somoy laage; strategy laage; ekti full-time job.

Ami mone kori manush bhogoban er ekti onnotomo shera shristi. Manush der sathe mishte amar bhalo lage. Ami toh ektu shilpi manush. Sob kichu kei romanticise kori. Sohor theke, lifestyle theke.. emonki sobji bajar korte jawa tao besh romantic amar kache. Sei ami kina.. aaj ei boyosh e eshe jibone romance khuje pacchi na! Eta ki maana jaay????

Kichu self-imposed niyom mene choltam. Jemon eki college, eki office e kichu kora jabe na. Oi romanticise... Hothat sohorer rastay kono mohila ke dekhe amar hridoy khule mukh diye beriye jaabe aar ami "poran jaay joliya re..." Gaibo.

Kintu eta ekta khaja niyom chilo. Eki college ba eki office maane apnara jiboner eki stage e, eki dynamic e dariye achen. Ei khetre prem kora onek soja. Soja jinish sob somoy je moja pawa jaay ta noy... Kintu bortoman somoy jibon ke complicate kore laabh ache ki?

College e porar somoy ofuraan naari songo... Ki bhalo tai na laagto. Office e ta hoy na. Aar holeo peshadar howa ta khub joruri. Jonoiko gyani byakti bolechilen, "Never Hookup, where you Vlookup". Tahole aar baki roilo ki!

Social Media? Jodi greek god er moton chehara na hoy tahole apnar opor creep er tag porte somoy lagbe na. Social Media chara socialize korte kintu hebi laage. Chowrasiar dokaner chaayer thek e ami LinkedIn er cheye beshi networking korechi.

Liikhte likhte pray mohabharot likhe fellam. Ektu khed er sathei bolchi, Kolkata... Tomake toh etoi bhalobasi. Sei kon bidesh bibhui ghure sesh mesh tomar kachei toh elam. Tumi ki amay ektu prem khuje dite paro na? Na maane.. ami tomay jor korchi na. No holeo kono osubidha nei. Sokale bournvita aar raate doi kheye din katiye debo.

Jak ge. Ei saamnei prem dibos upolokkhe kichu lok ke ekti bhalobasha obhijaan korte dekhe ei post ti lekhar iccha holo. Etodur jodi pore thaken.. Tobe amar torof theke "prem" neben.