Lost motivation and faith in the system

Hi all,

this is my first time posting here. I am a final year in a big city and I have been struggling with studying for my finals (Jan) recently due to a series of disappointments in the last year. I am terrified of the future and where I will end up due to the PIA system (I am international and it took me a while to create a support system here), and I am in disbelief at what happened with the SFP, as I really wanted to get a place and have been working in research since year 1, but with so few places available it did not happen.

For context, I have never struggled with studying and consider myself a good student, I have been wanting to get a distinction. However, I can't find a reason to put effort into revising for finals since it seems that excellence is no longer rewarded. I often think that if I didn't do any research and just barely passed all my exams, I would end up in the same situation I am now— probably even less burned out. Do you have any tips? (I am thinking of moving for specialty training and the system does not score publications/presentations)