i think im a weirdo

i get blocked by every female, i cant get any friends (even if i get one they would just ignore me and ghost me). i also think that im that pick me boy, who's trying to get the attention from the others. i also get really awkward and im not that talkative, i get really insecure when someone talks to me, to the point where i cant even talk. i feel like the females make fun of me for some reason.

i honestly do not know what to do, theres a problem that i cannot see. i wanna end it all, yk?