I want to love and be loved

I (26f) just want to love someone and have it be real. To have it be reciprocated.

My last relationship felt like everything until it wasn’t. He (28m) left suddenly, saying he didn’t know what he wanted in life. Something about moving to LA to be a comedian. He still hasn’t gone. But what really got me was finding his Reddit later, seeing the things he said about me. It gutted me. Made me question myself in ways I never had before.

I want to be someone’s person. I want to build something real, to grow, to laugh, to have someone who just chooses me. Someone I can hype up and love fully. I want to be a lover and be loved.

But where I live, it feels impossible. I refuse dating apps. And I’m just so tired of being alone.

How do people even meet each other anymore?