I could never tell people I actually know about my mental health problems.

I get why people would. It good to let your problems out and shit. Hell I'm the one usually telling people to. But I never could.

I just don't understand how people would. Even in the most perfect possible situation to I couldn't. Like if I'm cuddling with the love of my life/soulmate and they ask me if I'm doing okay my response would be a combination of the words, I'm, and then fine, or tired.

Maybe it's because of the whole men gotta be a man thing but I know people that will still listen and care. And I know people that wouldn't judge me for it. But there is no way I could. Idk why. Every reason points to I should but there is no way in hell I would.

If someone kept asking after I said I'm tired/fine I have no clue what I would say. Cause I can't tell them how I really feel. I just can't.

But yeah dispite every logical reason(including what I would tell someone else in my position to do) I could never. I just couldn't and I can't eplain why.

Also sorry if this is worded poorly, I'm just ranting with some 3am thoughts here.