Are you ever surprised to wake up again?

My fear has gotten so strong that im afraid to fall asleep. Every morning i wake up,i always say "well shit,i survived another one". πŸ˜…πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ€­πŸ˜†πŸ˜„πŸ™‚πŸ˜ŒπŸ˜πŸ˜”β˜ΉοΈπŸ˜ŸπŸ₯ΊπŸ˜­