Vortioxetine - Thinking about Reinstatement

Please don't just reply don't reinstate! I know it's hurt many people, I've read all the posts already.

I took sertraline in 2015. Had zero sexual function during it, anorgasmia, complete numbness. Stopped it and went back to normal in terms of sensation but I had zero libido and my personality changed. Didn't realise at the time but I definitely had pssd. I didn't have sex with my partner for years and didn't care

In 2021 I was given fluoxetine, had the same symptoms sexually but to a lesser degree and so switched to vortioxetine.

My oh my did vortioxetine bring me to life. I had more libido than ever before. Slept with many randomers which I had never done, had such a zest for life. A year later I started 5mg diazepam and my orgasms were INSANE. Lasted a minute, sensation was better than ever. Stayed on this combo for 2 years and it didn't diminish.

Decided to stop all psych meds, tapering off benzos made my orgasms impossibly good for a month. I stopped vortioxetine.

A month later I tried 5htp as a natural supplement. One night we went out, I felt crazy horny and drunk alcohol but I couldn't feel it, the next day I had my last good orgasm then crashed into severe pssd hard.

At this point I'm fed up of the windows and waves. I have alot better function than alot of people here. But I just want me back.

I want to restart the vortioxetine and diazepam combo that got me here. Any experiences in either that aren't just doom and gloom would be welcome. If it was negative for you can you put durations and details in please!